It’s all perspective.
Falling in love last year after 11 years alone was an amazing experience. I didn’t know I had the capacity to love so much. My heart just kept on opening, and each time I was with him I couldn’t believe that I loved him even more.
Now my heart is broken, I literally have a physical pain in my chest. I find that so interesting. As I contemplated this sensation, I realized that my heart was open, I mean REALLY open. This is wonderful! Yes, I still grieve the loss of the relationship, however what I am grieving is the potential of what I thought it could be.
What I didn’t realize is that what actually happened is I learned to love again. I learned I can love more than I ever thought possible. So I allow the grief, in gratitude of the amazing love I experienced. I feel more connected to me, I feel more aligned with God, and I feel like a better person because of it.
There was a time in my life, when I got hurt, I closed off and it created havoc and disease in my life. It hurt so much I didn’t want to experience pain again. Now I don’t exactly welcome the hurt, but I see it so differently. I see it as the whole reason I am here in this human suit, to love as much as possible, all the time.
I am here to love. Period. I am the love I want to see in the world. I completely believe what the amazing John Lennon said: “All you need is love”. I will take it further to say, all we ARE is love….all we are is love!
Because of this devastating heartbreak, I am more open than I ever was, and I am actually excited for what the future holds. Now I know that the more I love, the more I can love!!